Piling Up
These last few weeks have been difficult to say the least. Â The emotional roller coaster that came with mother's day has left me exhausted. Â Add everything else to that and you get things piling up.
I know there are plenty of other things I can write on that pile. Â We are all so overwhelmed at times that it's hard to figure out which way is up. Â The funny thing is that for me, this is my first experience with truly not feeling like I have control. Â And I'm struggling.
I'm struggling with how hard it is to sneak homework in and how much I dislike asking for help.  I struggle with not being able to write and with trying to figure out how I'm going to make  a living.  I struggle with overcommitting myself to things/causes that I love and then feeling disappointed in myself that I can't deliver.
And every day, I struggle with pushing that pile out from in front of me and just taking it one thing at a time.
Because ultimately, that's all we can do. Â I tend to get wrapped around the axle a lot. Â Especially when I look at my pile. Â I have to remember to REST because right now, I'm overtired and I realize that lack of sleep adds to my distress level.
It's all about trying to find peace. Bearing down and just doing it, whatever it might be. Â It's about being okay with saying no and learning to walk away temporarily from things that are not a current priority in my life. Â About not having to explain myself or what's on my pile.
And it's about keeping the positivity. Â I don't have all of the answers but I know that I have to be easier on myself. Â And I have to keep praying because ultimately, my faith will carry me through.
What do you do when things start piling up?
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